I try to hide it, but inside I’m shaking
When you’re gone, my heart is too
Masquerading memories of you
Can’t pretend that your words don’t phase me
Can’t pretend that you don’t amaze me
1. I love baseball and the Yankees, and I think Derek Jeter is sexy.
2. I have a secret love for the occasional rap song.
3. I played softball for nine years, even though I’m too clumsy for sports.
4. I have a random obsession with college basketball.
5. My dad is one of my best friends.
6. I have epilepsy, which doesn’t affect my life in the slightest.
7. I do really bad/stupid things when I’m drunk.
8. I love love love country music. Even the super hick stuff.
9. I’m weirdly attracted to basketball players. So tall and so cute.
10. I want multiple tattoos and my nose pierced.
The one thing I can’t seem to get over is the thing that I’ve needed to get over for about a year now. I’m tired of being so obsessed with wanting someone to like me, but with him I just can’t help myself. I couldn’t even give you five reasons why I have these feelings for him. They’re just here, and nothing will make them go away. Trust me, I’ve tried. It’s not even logical to be this stuck on someone who isn’t even around, but I’m so beyond stuck. I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately. Way more than I’d like to admit. So much reminds me of him and things that happened with him, and it’s just so frustrating. I just want to know why I wasn’t good enough.
I miss the time when I used to know just, just how it feels to be in over my head. When I would do anything for your love. When we could be anything we wanted. What I’d give to touch your skin and beg your heart to feel the way it felt back then. So let me in.
I was more like a bystander in the last argument I had, but I still got my opinion in there a bit. Jess and Braydon were talking about Peyton Manning, and Braydon just wasn’t making any sense. He kept saying that Peyton deserves 28 million dollars to just sit on the bench because of how great he has been, which isn’t even logical. No one deserves 28 million dollars for anything that they do. I mean, Peyton Manning is great and all, but not worth that much money. Also, Braydon thinks that he should stay here and play and risk being paralyzed, which is just ridiculous. I don’t know a lot about this situation really, but I do know that Braydon was stupid. His only response was, “but he’s Peyton fucking Manning.” So? He’s great and all, but there are some things that just aren’t worth the risk. He also thinks that if the Colts don’t want him, he’ll go to another team, which is also dumb. Peyton Manning has said that he only wants to play on one team his entire career, sooooo. Some people are more loyal than Braydon thinks apparently. I don’t know, he’s just the most annoying person in the world to argue with because he makes absolutely no sense.
